unexpected fun

we went into it without any expectations. we just followed and felt the energy and did what was right. and in the strangest of times, she laughed. I questioned her laughter, and she said simply as smiling ear to ear:

"I'm just having a good time!"

today this is a lesson. don't fall victim to a pretend sense of reality

 i just realized something. each night, felt pleasant and fun. something new, mellow, and relaxing. a time spent together, enjoying each other's company. indulging in a few things we don't normally get...looking back though, i guess it became routine. cozy comfortable and connected. but i realize now, we were simply losing ourselves. hiding away in a far off fun reality. one of excitement, wonder, adventure, lust, and love..mostly love. it was our outlet to be happy. it just hit me. those nights weren't real. they weren't the truth..

asking a question, for an unwanted answer.
knowingly known, understanding her.
the present realization, distant from the past.
come a long way, from a truth split last.
built up, supported in fame.
honest communication, a jokers game.
every ounce every breath, purposefully gave.
unpredicted, and independently brave.
a soft goodbye, not holding a kiss.
sadness came, the mark was missed.
a pair apart, not asked to join.
simply put, a one sided coin.